Monthly Archives: March 2016


The spring has come to Uppsala. Yesterday I saw the Sallow´s flowers beginning to emerge. Genuine warmth is finally here. Going alongside the shoreline in Uppsala one can see migrating birds gathering in the low lands.

This week has been spent reading the Slow Violence book for the CEMUS course lecture next Friday. A real change since the evil math course feeling undertaken tasks are completed. I´m still waiting for answers from the Environmental assessment course.

The plan right now is to continue searching internships. Hehe feels as if one hasn´t had any life from the period of four courses simultaneously. One has time to take a breather between tasks. Four courses were too much. Regrettably I have to engage in the leftovers from the evil math tasks that are growling in the deep recesses of my mind. Sigh… Well a man got to do what a man got to do. Sort of.
Alnarp Park Dam

Meanwhile I´m thinking back at the years in the Alnarp Park during my bachelor, remembering old clearings within the green spaces of color.


The laser generation


Yeah I know. I swamped with the completion of the first two courses in line. I also read about our problematic laser-society. Hoping the interruption can be justified since the laser issue is acute. I will try to compensate for my delay, focusing on eye injuries.

My assessment of the Norra Länken is hopefully done. It´s in the hands of my supervisor. Mobility was favored over long term sustainability hoping technology would save us. It was an effort to increase traffic pressure and lead emissions away to someone else, with some hot spots within the city still. There could be acute problems for hypersensitive persons in tunnels.

Regrettably I went ill for the evil math test. Am on my knees unable deciding if it was bad actually. Will take the next test.

Soo.. Laser. To focus radiation a certain direction as a tool, also responsible for lot´s of suffering, partly via eye damages. Even if it has existed since the 1960s and became hype manifested via movies such as Star Wars or Star Trek, until people finally learned it was not a toy, our generation has started all over again – unlearning their lesson. It was developed by military endeavors partly to drop LGBs by USA. Anyone played Starcraft? “Someone called for an exterminator!”. Same principle. The laser was developed to a societal planning tool, partly as rotating lasers, or distance mapping where it’s essential. I´ve worked with them myself. It´s as best a working tool that shall not belong to individuals! The last ten years since the older generation have begun to lay down their guard, laser companies work in the dark, forcing lasers into civil societies. Irradiation agencies are warning that laws and regulation hasn´t been able to protect our generation resulting in lots of injuries and grey areas when it comes to damages. If you get hurt – no one can help you! Almost no eye doctor in Sweden have done their homework making the issue a nightmare for the ones hurt, even with detectible damages in tissues = anomalies.

After spreading to stores, offices, laser shows, warehouses, eye surgeries etc. BMW and Audi began using high effect lasers as headlights. Cl. 4 – the highest class. There´s no upper limit in this one but uses are partly for cutting metal or eye surgeries. I myself was struck in my eyes by laser headlights at night and I´ve still pain in my eyes. To use amplified radiation in traffic in this sense is madness. It seems as if the phosphors layer only breaking the precision from the laser like a prism and creating wider nanometer scale; thereby white light from the blue nm scale, while absorbing a few photons, sure… BMW and Audi. While people has reported problems with the LED diodes for being too strong for their eyes, now BMV and Audi are bragging that these cl. 4 460-500 nm (blue) lasers generate over 1000 times the effects than LED diodes.

I´m sure many people will suffer and I will never forget this betrayal by BMW and Audi. This begun as another sale trick to vane people risking other persons’s eyes. Since there is a demand they now presenting this as if we in society have an obligation to use their lasers in headlights too.. as in everything else, if laser producing companies have it their way. I´ve been in contact with multiple retailers and producers of laser myself, asking the question why they don´t even demand license before selling even cl. 3 & 4 hand lasers to unauthorized people. The answer as according to so many others I´ve spoke to: Nothing! Not a word!

On photos the guy that developed both LED- and 460-500 nm laser (blue) radiation sources wear anti-laser absorbing lenses in his lab. Even though the precision of course isn´t that acute via the headlights, the situation is not that comforting for those without anti laser protection. Laser don´t belong with individuals BMW and Audi!

This could perhaps very well be dangerous for the traffic safety also. For those who are unsure, be assured the developers have programmed the headlights to avert the front and blinding everyone else along the roads instead.

I believe laser is going to be the post industrialized problem of this generation. A scientist I spoke with at KTH in Stockholm a very well regarded technically oriented university, said that: I believe that when enough people’s lives have been destroyed, lasers are going to be re-regulated again, but not before.

No – wavelength has very little to do with classes or damage; one can get just as strong output effect from a 530 nm laser as a 680 nm = the “color” doesn´t matter that much.

Problems reported from cl. 2 lasers:

Light sensitivity –  can´t be outside in worst case = not much of a life. Same for cl. 3 & 4.
Bright spot or area in your vision when trying to sleep. E.g. a red spot = very disturbing.
Reduced vision
Irritated eyes, red, tearing.
Hard to focus longer periods in front of a computer screen or tv.

Can be found: Barcode scanners, AF laser to mobile phones, presentation pointers.

Problems reported from  cl. 3.

Blindness, Retina detachment, Detectible bleedings in eye tissue.
Destroyed detail vision forever = e.g. can see periphery but can´t read text.
Chronic vision loss in parts of ones visual field.

Can be found, Strong pointers/scanners, laser shows, other adapted lasers.

Problems reported by cl. 4.
Total coagulation of eye tissues = ruined/burnout.
Cornea haze.

Plus many mentioned above.

Can be found
Extremely strong lasers such as rust removals, pointers, add ons, surgical fat reduction lasers, epidermal surgical lasers, metal cutting, and military targeting systems.

/Until next time


I have tried to find the time giving a word or two about incoming comments. After some time I guess one have to, take, the time. I want to thank for all the uplifting comments about my achievements. Especially the spammers. Thank you for the fantastic credit. It´s although sad that it in end it ruins for others. I have learned that much from professionals – be thankful for what one receive and then erase the spam. It takes so much time tracing every message of which one doesn´t know for sure if it´s genuine. I want everyone who have written genuine messages to know I read them. Thank you!



Fresh evening air, damp and soothing filled with birds stirring has made its mark upon the days´ progressing. Dry snow has given way to humid rain bringing with it the smell of soil. The generating biosphere has finally been called upon to wake up and enrich all life so desperately dependent on it, reaching out once more for all who are waiting.

Soon the Sallow (S. caprea) will come into blossom giving aid to struggling bees, bumblebees, insects, birds and so many more – every being depending on its food in still a barren countryside and concrete bunkers. The agents that so well protecting others not least humans from diseases spread through the food web, have also been summoned. Their incredibly unthankful work owed to the latter´s strong fear for them has just begun.

Stirrings of the human animal have finally begun to settle since the spring’s call reached them. Yesterday I concluded the last scheduled system analyze lecture knowing I have failed. I can´t afford to concentrate on that now and just have to finish the Environmental assessment before the next deadline at Thursday. After that it´s just to throw myself on the exam material for the analysis course with my half bitter smile in defeat.

Sitting with the Norra Länken again having focused on other courses since; my new perspective clearly shows how much time I´ve actually put into it. Now the framing is done and with a supporting hand on my own shoulder I guess I´ve done best possible fighting so much on other´s terms last weeks with the evil math.

I will draw in the dank evening smell listening to the birdsong promising something new in my life since what feels as a very long time ago.

/Until next time


Sightings of coming spring are in the air and stirrings of people have begun to increase. Class mates are in this slightly notable high gear mode and one can feel that something about our world is changing. Just like every year.

It feels terrific to think of what lies on other side of the last evil math lecture. Still I´ve failed completing this evil plan. Right now I´m trying to focus on getting the lecture done. On the side the Norra Länken thing is to be concluded within a week. The rest have to wait.

Speaking of light, thoughts about my strive combating increasing laser problems in societies have begun occupying my mind again. Here the other day I was struck in my eyes by these new car laser-headlights in the dark – just another exposure in a long line from various laser products, e.g. laser scanners (Bar code scanners) or presentation pointers, that have made my own and so many others lives incredibly complicated.

Many in contact with eye doctors have been sold out and discredited. For a couple of years I sat in phone and by mail with scientist, eye doctors, institutions, retailers of laser safety equipment etc. from countries as US, UK, Sweden and Germany. Some conversations more comfortable than others while the medical and physiological debate raged back and forth. Soon I became one of the most educated persons in entire Sweden about documented damages alongside physiological discussions – eye doctors included. The latter regrettably continues to dodge both their homework and role in this mess.

So while school demands much of my time I´m swamped in an inner struggle whether I have energy left to raise the laser issue again in relation to social responsibilities.

/Until next time


March is upon us, and I feel the school´s slowly progress to its final stages. Yesterday the last CEMUS course – the final obstacle for the first year completion of the program, was presented. I don´t think I have any anxiety left to wonder about how this is going to play itself out. Right now it´s just one day after the next, until the first two courses in line are finished. Then one can begin to think forward.

Used the last hours yesterday searching for internship during hopefully the whole autumn semester 2016. It´s striking how different one is met by companies also contacted after the bachelor – now suddenly interested owed to the Master-thing on the diploma. Before one was just a filthy bachelor. Useless. Now you are a Master. The tone in the telephone is uplifting and focused. I had expected it easier, but this… One begins to wonder.

The summer´s will have taken the upper hand yet again and slowly the cold have stopped feeding the suffocating snow on top of the green and palpable beginning its way to blossom. The other night one could still hear the omitting sounds of drops from melting snow atop roofs and downpipes. “Still above melting point in the middle of the night”, I thought. I believe the snow going to lose this one. At least its accompanying darkness fades away leaving the ice and cold to fend for themselves.

I hope one can depicture the same situation about the studies next time. Really need some of it coming loose soon.

/Until next time


The evil math is taking its toll. Just as feared I failed finishing the next last task. Many others were afraid of the same fate I guess because the ones that demanded most help got it, holding on to the teacher for up to an hour each. Dorks like me sat without any, most of the time^^… eight hours of waiting. Hard times when the teacher favors the best ones, those that already has left the class room while we are still stuck, bleeding energy over all the other courses.

I fear I have to abort this endeavor owed to the circumstances, to deal with it later. It´s hard and irritating but life isn´t fair as at least some surely knows. I can only be grateful that the third course – Interdisciplinary practice contains so far… much information since before.

At Friday we get the fourth course in our laps and I wonder how some persons really though when they planned this. I remember one of the CEMUS staff saying something like “This is an easy program so if you want to have something out of it, it will be up to you to challenge yourselves”, or something similar. Well I can only say that I haven’t done anything else than studying since I arrived.

Time, patience and endurance are running out, blended with frustration and anger about how the analysis course has been organized… Others have been sharing my opinion, although there seems to be no questioning that I´m the one really getting burned here. Math is really not my thing, while most of the technological engineers have found it easy.

Hard times talking to the hand and still there is a fifth battle coming, besides the fourth; as good as untouched.